Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Poetry Archiving Part 4
"Little Brother" by Ethan M.
Little brother, where have you gone?
To the recesses of my mind, to fill the void
that I created by myself
Does this mean we can not be,
best friends, through all of it?
Such a shame.
Little brother there is so much yet we haven’t done
I need the chance to give advice
And you need the chance to heed me
And we could laugh together like we did that one time.
When I watch from afar I can see the joy
And it brings me happiness I can’t quite recall
I will give you anything, everything in exchange for your
Time
Just us little brother, away from their fights
And little brother another thing I’d like you to know
That when I’m mean to you it’s just me trying to be cool
And I’m scared for you and frightened you see,
Because I know that one day you won’t need me
Plus I’m dying to know who is picking on you
I may not be a fighter but I’d get bruised up for you
Then we can jump in my car and go for a cruise
Blasting our music and wasting my fuel
We can go out to eat and you can tell me all about your life
And for just that time I’ll feel important again
Because this cavity needs filled and you’re just like a dentist
Little brother it’s a lot to ask but please could you mend it?
I remember that time when you tripped and you fell
Little brother please, help me to end this hell
Just show me that smile and let me know you’re alright
Strangely enough that should help me get through the night
One more time I’ll search and I’ll desperately plead.
Little brother, where did you go?
I can only hope that you didn’t go home.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Poetry Archiving Part 3
"Soon I'll Apologize" by Ethan M.
Isn’t that reality?
She’s such a cold-hearted bitch
Can I continue to ignore her and the truth she has left?
While I whine at the table you run about
And I cannot help but visualize my world without-
Stop!
That’s her again, and I must realize
Things can’t just change in a night
And perhaps I’m the one who needs to change
I need to appreciate all I have gained
While I criticize others for their vanity
I hypocritically look in the mirror and see
A life without you, without them
Without me, I’m elsewhere, in the middle
And I’m finally happy
It is twisted and wrong to want what I need
Maybe in a year I could potentially change
I’ll see you for what you are
Perhaps I’ll accept it too
In the meanwhile it is easier for me
to complain about you
They are ignorant
I am jealous
You are innocent
I know who is truly at fault
But scapegoats are far to easy to come by
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Poetry Archiving Part 2
"You Can't Always Choose" by Ethan M.
Have I ever mentioned that I bleed green
When I see you people with your perfect sheen
And all you can do is simply downplay
While I marvel and wonder what it is I’m missing
Count two, three, four, sometimes more
Glistening smiles that often speak opposite words
Put me amongst you, but not to invade
I just want to get a taste of that life for a day
Your spontaneous photos I stare at for hours
Hurt and angry that I’ll never understand
My envy comes in waves
And the demon inside, makes me cry
And I hate that you can’t love
What you so blatantly have
In a future I imagined a time
When my children wouldn’t have to hide
They’d have what I’ve wanted
And resent me all the same
But they won’t feel the pain that I’ve felt for so many days
They’ll appreciate it all, because when you’re old, the truth becomes clear
To have someone keeps everything real
So get over your coordinated little fights
And know who will stay with you
During the darkest of nights
My jealousy may be a sin
But your ignorance is worse
I’ll love you the same though
Just like them
When the time is right
Because for better or worse
You’re better together
And I’m just on the outside looking in
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Poetry Archiving
"The Way Water Flows" by Ethan M.
Have you ever stood and wondered about the way water flows;
from the clouds, back to the ground,
through the
But did you look as the water
flowed off your body onto your shower’s floor?
And as it flowed it had no control
of where it was to go. But you
shouldn’t be jealous because even without control
water still flows where you want it to go;
to the bottom of the sea to hide in darkness
or into the sky to bask in the heavens.
When I pound on your locked bathroom door
And can only here the drugs talk back, I know
you’re like the water conforming to a
different container, and as your mind explodes
I begin to loath you and who you believe
you have become.
I wish you could see that the water flows where only it can go;
deep in the ocean or within the clouds.
And you aren’t like the water.
You have control.
You know where you want to flow;
down the drain to a home, different than your own.
As you lay on your shower’s floor.
Water running off your body.
I’d like you to know,
I don’t want you to go,
where only the water can flow.